Happy New Year to everyone who has stayed with me over the last year. Since starting this blog just over a year ago, I have learned a lot about blogging and there is still much to learn and grow from. Any words of kindness, encouragement, or affirmations from my posts have meant more to me than you will ever know. After taking a quick break from my blog, I have decided to keep at it and move forward. One thing I have learned from I’m A Good Mom, I Swear is that this blog has been just as much for me as it has been for anyone who reads it – whether that’s for one person or multiple. I formed this blog as an outlet to practice mindfulness and a place I can release energy when times get tough. I have built this blog on honesty. This includes my everyday life as a mother but also about my experience with anxiety and depression all in hopes I can help even one person going through something similar.
With that being said, I have not written in two months and that is because I started falling apart. I strive to be honest, so here it goes… anxiety and depression do not simply go away. You learn to live with it and sit with the agonizing feeling it brings. This past summer I started falling into old patterns of negative thinking, anxious thoughts, low self-esteem, and constant worrying. Quite simply, fear of the fear.
I write this with tears in my eyes as a flood of embarrassment washes over me in admitting how much I struggled after writing encouraging posts. I want to be better, I want to live my life with overflowing joy and laughter. However, sometimes “the evil one” reads me lies and takes over my brain. I have to constantly remind myself that God is with me and He is healing me – little by little. After many talks with my doctor and therapist, just because I am struggling does not mean my life has to stop or my goal of helping others has to fall apart. I can still get dressed each morning, take my kids to school, and talk to another Mom who is struggling and offer any words of hope to help her make it through the day, the same way my loved ones do for me. Anxiety is a fight much like the tortoise and the hare. I want to win quickly like the hare, unfortunately, this battle is tortoise speed to inner-peace.
With that being said, my chosen word in 2020 is PEACE. I want to find peace with my life, those around me, and most importantly, an inner-peace within myself. My husband and I came up with our list of New Years Resolutions in order to gain some inner-peace for us individually, our family, and our marriage, and I hope a few of these ideas can bring some peace and joy into your lives as well.
Thank you for sticking with me, I’m here to stay!
2020 Resolutions and Goals to Build a Better You (and Me!):
- Write down 5 things you are thankful for.
- Say something positive in the mirror.
- Meditate on God’s word for 10 minutes.
- Compliment your spouse or partner every single day.
- Start the day with a hug & a kiss.
- Read a book for 10-15 minutes.
- Get on the floor and play a game with your kids.
- Workout for 20 minutes (more if you can).
- Text a family member.
- Journal your thoughts or prayers for 5-10 minutes
- Watch a movie.
- Call a friend to catch-up.
- Play a brain game like Sudoku or a crossword puzzle.
- Bake or cook a new recipe.
- Get together for lunch, coffee, or a work-out with a friend.
- Have a date night.
- Invite a friend or a couple over and host dinner.
- Read a book (or more!).
Overall Goals for 2020:
- Don’t shop/spend as much money on things you don’t need.
- Have more patience with your kids.
- Let the messy house go.
- Visit someplace new.
- Make intimacy with your spouse a priority.